Wednesday, 14 February 2007

Choose what's right, consider what's left

Last night i had to make a difficult decision. It was one of those things which you wished you didn't have to choose coz knowing that either way, you will have to disappoint someone.

One would think that after 20 years, it'll get easier. Weekdays with Dad, weekends with Mum. Then there's the occasional debate of who to spend my birthday/public holiday/award celebration/graduation with. But it's times like Christmas and Chinese New Year when there's big family gatherings that things get dicey. Eventually, it worked into Christmas with Dad, CNY with Mum. Not that it was best but agreeable to a certain extent.

This year, i was ready to let routine take its course but Dad called last night to say that Cilla's dad (his cousin) has booked us for Reunion Dinner. Usually it's just a few families getting together for dinner and then meet up with other families a few days later for another dinner. But this year, they decided that ALL should come together. It's going to be massive with about 40 of us - immediate family, siblings, cousins, extended family, in-laws, out-laws.. you name it, they'll be there.

I reminded Dad that i usually have dinner at Mum's and he said he was just conveying the message. My place at the dinner has been set so the decision is mine to make. Gahhhhhhhh....
After deliberating for what felt like eternity, i called Mum to ask if i can have Reunion Lunch with her instead. It'll still be on the eve of CNY. Again, the answer was "the decision is yours".

Ugh.... why does it have to be so hard? Both options placed in my hands and weighing equally as heavy. If only i can duplicate myself to be at 2 places at the same time, then i wouldn't have to choose.

PS: Happy Valentine's Day dear ones. I hope you're not faced with these kind of decisions. *hugs*

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