Life less ordinary

Spent Saturday being unproductive. Didn't rush for gym or anywhere. Surprise surprise?? So unlike me. Must be the age thingy. 8P Hahahaha.... Then in evening, Mumbles came by with his friend, the "Attorney at Law" (AaL) to pick me for dinner together with Csu and Siryn at SOULed Out. Mmmm... must admit it was nice to be 'chauffeur-driven'. Have always been the one driving whenever i go out with friends.. and in my little compact car. So when the guys came by in a saloon, it felt sooooooooo spacious. (ok.. being hillbillie here). And to have them open the door to let me in and out. *swoon* So this is what royalty feels like. Hehehehehehe..... (Yes, despite being feminist in a lot of things.... am secretly happy for these rare acts of chivalry)

Had a lot of laughs over dinner. Glad to see my different sets of friends getting along. Wished Foodie and hubby could've been there too. :\ Felt a little 'bimbo' at times when AaL let out bombastic words but Mumbles was sweet enough to qualify that i am not. Wheeeee.... hurrah for Good Friends!! And.. despite my earlier protests of not making my birthday a circus, Csu snuck in a chocolate cake for me and everyone ( i mean.. EVERY ONE in THE restaurant) sang Happy Birthday in the most UN-harmonious way imaginable. Plus.. they plopped a "Happy Birthday" sign on top of my head. *silent groan* Did i say i love my friends??? I REALLY do!!

On Sunday, my family and i went for BBQ Skewer Buffet dinner at Halia. Belated birthday celebration for Dad as well as me. :) It wasn't a crazy as Sat night. Family obviously more civilised (hehehehe..) but it was just as good a celebration as any. Food was aplenty. Think Dad ate almost a whole cow considering he kept asking for more of the BBQ beef... and lamb. He claimed he had been saving his stomach for these. Hahahaha....

My birthday celebration is far from over. Still have a few more to go with other friends and also my family back in my hometown. So maybe making my wish for others is right after all... Look what i got in return. 8D

Thank you SOOOOOOOOO much for everyone who's sms-ed/called/emailed/blogged me. You have REALLY made my birthday the BEST!!! Love you all!!!! *hugs*

My wish

Was out the whole of today for meetings. Rushed back to the office hoping to finish some work... and guess what happened? SIGH!!! My computer crashed.... AAARRRRGGGGHHHHHH. Sheesh...had i known this would happen, i wouldn't have driven like a maniac through rush hour traffic to come back. And now am told that i might NOT have the comp for a few days while they fix the problem. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.... my files were in there!!!!! I know, i know.. why didn't i back-up my files? Well.. i did...erm...earlier. But not the latest working files coz i WAS planning to do it today AFTER my meeting. SIGH!!!! Oh well... no point fretting about it now. Have to juz start over. :(

Anyway, during my drive back, was juz thinking about what to 'wish' for my birthday. Hey.. it's not every day i get to wish for something.. so being the forward planner that i am (ahem), decided to think about it before i 'officially' make it tomorrow. 8P Then i realized that i never really get whatever i wished for anyway. I know... SAD! :P So i figured, maybe it's coz i've been asking for the wrong things. And as i dwell on it further, this song came on the radio.. and i think the lyrics said it all.

So to everyone, this is MY WISH:

I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you wanna go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.

And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

But more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And always give more than you take.

P.S: Ok... so i borrowed this song from Rascal Flatts. :P But i hope for this year, my 'wish' will come true. *Hugs to all*

Royal. Pain.

Ok... am going to try make nice. Not an easy feat considering that it IS Sunday but am IN the office because apparently SOME people have absolutely NO sense of timelines and committed to deliver a presentation tomorrow morning WHEN it should be a month from now. Quite obvious some people don't know the meaning of TIME MANAGEMENT or to NEGOTIATE for some breathing space. Aaarrrgghhh!!! :P

Got pleasant news on Friday though. Siryn was given 2 media invites to Rodgers & Hammerstein's The King and I Musical, so she asked me to go along. Wheeeeeeeeeee!!! Love Siryn!!! Had lovely lovely time there yesterday. It's one of my FAVE musicals. And ooh, we checked the pricelist and found out that IF we had to pay, it would've set us back RM225 EACH. *faints* Did i mention that i love Siryn?!?! *HUGS* (Now, don't go thinking off the straight track ya?)

Also, had a good chat with Foodie Queen last night. It's one thing to IM but nothing beats hearing her voice. *miss her soooooo much* Cannot believe it's been so long since we've not seen each other. Really really hope (crossing fingers, eyes & toes) that i can visit her soon. Oh oh... just heard that her hubby had an accident and broke his foot. :( Gee, that's so unfortunate... See, these are the times when i wish i have $$$ to fly over there to keep her company.

Any millionaires out there?? ;) I don't need anyone to accompany me, just the ticket will do. I assure you 'am not difficult woman'. :P Please? Anyone?

Sigh...

Lighting up

In case anyone's wondering (please please please.. let there be someone), I'm still alive!! Not necessarily sane.. but very much alive. Still capable of getting annoyed and frustrated and wanting to throw things at people (though i don't. Honest!!). I've been chasing deadlines to no end and it's taking a toil on everyone. Aaarrgghhh... don't you just hate it when people have no sense of time and keep procrastinating, thus putting a backlog on your work coz you're depending on them to deliver before you can do your job? UGH.. get a move on, ppl!!! Otherwise, am going jab you with a burning cattle prod and send you the bill for my Prozac and Botox injections.

Ok, ok.. stop frowning...you don't need another line across your forehead. Stripes are SO last season. :P Csu and Siryn asked me what i have planned for my birthday. Guh! I.don't.know. I'm definitely NOT looking forward to a bunch of people gathering around singing in disharmony while staring at a cake which is about to burn to a crisp from the candles' light. Heck.. might as well not bake the cake.. just stick the candles in the batter, light them (the candles, you nitwit!) and by the time you've finished singing (the 3rd horrendous version of Happy Birthday), the cake would've baked just right.

Sigh.. sorry. Didn't mean to be unappreciative. I just needed to vent out...

Everything

Phew.. it's been non-stop action for the last few days. Well.. actually, been busy for quite a while now so maybe i should stop overstating the obvious. :P Was out of office the whole of Friday for a photoshoot and already felt as if have not talked to friends for long while. Hahahaha.. i know i know.. am addicted to IM.

Yesterday, i attended what must've been the 'best wedding' of 2007 (in my opinion, that is). The whole event was done very tastefully and creatively. It wasn't the big things but the little touches here & there and the attention to details that really made the whole thing special. And it was so sweet to see the bride & groom do a duet together and later on, to present each other with 'surprise' dedications. Am really happy for both of them and honoured that they're my friends. :D

Am also very very VERY blessed to have different ones leave me sms/comments to cheer me up. You ALL are the BEST!!!! *HUGS* It's gonna be another long week ahead so till my next post, here's a little something for you:

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times

It's you, it's you, You make me sing

You're every line, you're every word, you're everything

You're every song, and I sing along

Cause you're my everything

P.S: If you wanna hear this song, it's by Michael Buble. Shan't sing lest you want your eardrums damaged by my screeching. 8P

Therefore i am

Today, for the first time in years... i lost my composure. I had to run into the loo, sit down and fight the tears that were straining to release itself.

All the anger, all the frustration... it just welled up inside me and right then, i wished i could've just cried. Instead, i took a deep breath...and another, and then walked out with a smile to my meeting.

I've been told i'm a perfectionist... and i know i am.. to the point of being an obsessive-compulsive personality. I want things to be well planned, structured...I build my own little cocoon where things move in perfect motion in this world of mine.
(Gawd.. someone call the men in white coats QUICK!) And when something interrupts the momentum, i react by quickly putting things back so as to continue its flow.

But lately, i find things just slipping through my fingers, faster than an elephant in quicksand... and no matter how hard i try, i can't bring order to chaos... i can't be there to help... i can't kiss and take away the pain... :(

Maybe i'm just being too hard on myself. I've put too high expectations on myself and others. And when things don't go as planned, i get upset. Gaaahhh... am control freak!!! HEEEEELLPPP!!! I should check myself in to the asylum soon if i don't get a grip of myself.

Ok.. calm down... breathe.... Nobody's perfect... Nobody's perfect... I'm a nobody.... ;P