Constant change

Am almost back to breathing normally now that there's a hiatus in deadlines & presentations. Still have work to do but at least am a little more organized and not flapping about like a headless fowl. Had a few disappointments along the way but hopefully things turn out right.

The new exec came in this week.Yay! Found out she goes to the same gym as me. Another Yay coz now i have no excuse to slack. 8P Plus, she's from the same hometown and speaks the same dialect. Double triple YAY!!! So far, we've gotten along quite well so hopefully this will continue. :D

Jebi's leaving (the agency & for UK) in about a week's time. Haven't been spending time with her lately although we work in same office. Will definitely miss her. :'( Can't think of anyone else with her kind of humour and photo-taking mania. Hehehe... (Note to self: Make sure have lunch with her before she flies away)

Can't believe Elyse (Foodie Queen's princess) is more than a month old already. How time flies. Really wishing i can be there with them. But unless i win the lottery (in which i will i have to start buying if i want to win) or some old eccentric relative 'kaput' and leave his/her entire legacy to me, it'll be probably a while more before i can beam myself over to Texas. :P

So many things going on...so many things changing. I realized i've not been spared too...'change' i mean. I'm not the same as i was before.. well... i don't think i am & hopefully for the better. ;) I've bought my own car and somewhat stabilize my career. I've made new friends as well as found some whom i've lost touch with for years, not to mention wised up & move away from toxic ones. I've made (or at least try to make) a conscious decision to eat healthy and exercise on a regular basis.

Gosh.. there's so many more things ahead. Some moving so fast, i can hardly catch up. I think i can i think can... *chugga chugga chugga*

What joy is this ride

The first time on a roller coaster is always fun. The anticipation of what is to come, the excitement of up down around, to climb off feeling a little woozy and then... to have another go at it. :) After a while, even the best rides become too much. Sure, you can forsee what lies ahead and prepare for it but soon the 360° loops and the swooshing down lose its appeal. What you get instead is that sick feeling in your stomach.

And THAT is exactly what i've been going through these few weeks.. or is it months? No... i've not been to any theme parks and NO.. neither am i pregnant. (in case some of u DARE to suggest) :P What i'm experiencing is having too many things going on and being on my toes all the time.

Recently i asked Csu.. or was it Siryn.. see, i can't even remember...anyway, the question i asked was "When did my time became other people's lives? What happened to 'me' time?". Maybe it's because i don't like to say No. There's always this part of me that feels bad when i turn someone down...the nagging thought of "was i selfish to do so?". Where do i draw the line between meeting someone's need and being taken for granted? *sighs*

I'm grateful for good friends who've IM/called/sms-ed me on and off to see how i am or to steal me away for a meal or two. Even some who've exasperated me with their warped ideas have provided a good distraction. Hmm.. sounds like an oxymoron.. but nevermind. :D I'm just glad i have people around to keep me from going over the edge... or as one of them put it 'crazy..i am not. sane..i am in." Hahahaha...

*deep breath* Right, I think i'm ready to go on that roller coaster again... ;P

Man! I feel like a woman

The best thing about being a woman,
Is the prerogative to have a little fun
~ Shania Twain ~

Women are meant to be love, not to be understood ~ Oscar Wilde ~

Life as we live it

First and foremost, if you're going to be sensitive about what i'm going to say, then i suggest you stop reading and go somewhere far away. Because right now, i am very annoyed and my words may not be nice. So be warned!!

I DON'T know what is going on these days but i seem to be meeting more and more pessimists. I mean, COME ON... life is already challenging as it is. I don't need you to make it harder. Granted, some people may be blessed with a little (or a lot) more than others... but don't whine about how sorry your life is. SERIOUSLY... there are MORE people out there who's had a lot worst.

Stop saying the Shoulda Woulda Coulda. DO something about it.

Stop being a schizophrenic/hypochondriac. FACE IT!! ALL of us will leave this earth eventually.. so let's try to make our days here more worthwhile. Nobody's out to hurt you and NO, you're not going to die from eating that extra slice of cake or spending the few minutes walking outside or whatever else you're afraid of. You're NOT THAT lucky!!

Stop complaining that nobody cares about you. IF you'd only stop the childishness & whining, maybe then you'd be more bearable and people would want to befriend you.

Stop lamenting about the promotion you didn't get or the weight you didn't lose or whatever else on your "must have or i'll die" list. Work HARDER at it. Results come with perserverance and discipline.

Stop thinking you can't. How would you know unless you're tried? If you continue with this dejected spirit, NOTHING will happen. Don't be your own obstacle... and on that note, don't be mine either. :P

Stop asking why i don't do this/that for you or spend more time on other people/things. If you'd stop being so selfish, maybe you'd see that i've already given you more than anyone else.

I've been told that in life, there are 3 types of people. 1st - those who make things happen, 2nd - those who wait for things to happen, 3rd - those who wonder what happened.

So while you sit there figuring out which group you want to be in... please excuse me, i have to go. LIFE is calling me already!!

Sum of all its parts

Someone sent me this quote today and i thought it's great...

I believe the nicest and sweetest days are not those on which anything very splendid or wonderful or exciting happens, but just those that bring simple little pleasures, following one another softly, like pearls off a string.

~ L.M. Montgomery ~

Melting pot

Yikes... didn't realize so many days had passed since i last posted. Guess the busyness of life makes it easy to lose track of time. My uncle & aunt was away for about a week so spent a bit of time with my cousins.

I've also been renewing ties with friends whom i've lost contact with for years. For some strange reason, they 're-surfaced' and suddenly, we're keeping in touch more often now than ever before. ;) On top of that, i've also met 'new' people who are fast becoming good friends. Yay!!!! Am not social pariah anymore. Hehehehe...

Yesterday, when i was telling Csu about my new-found friends and all, it occured to me that my friends are a weird bunch. It's like a cornucopia of different characters, ages, shapes & sizes. Yet somehow, we all meet somewhere in the middle. :D And lately, i've been amazed by the stories they can tell. Goes to show still waters run deep and you can never judge a book by its cover.. or in my case....within the first few chapters. Hahaha...

I'm glad i'm not the 'freak' after all...