A step at a time

Can't believe we're already 18 days into the new year. There were too many times when i started a post, only to abandon it because it became too depressing. 2007 hadn't been too good for me.. and i guess for a number of other people as well.

Things just came one after another. Just when you thought it couldn't get worse... it did. Disappointments, let-downs, broken promises, misunderstandings, betrayals.... it made me wonder if there was any integrity left in people.

Yet again, i say this... i am soooooooo fortunate to have good friends beside me. Csu has been very supportive of me. Even though she may not always understand what i'm going through, yet she tried. And i saw the true measure of friendship when i called Siryn & FQ in the middle of the night (after a heart-breaking incident) and burst into tears. I just lost it then but they were my pillars of strength. To assure me things are gonna be ok. Even Tsing (whom i've lost touch with for decades), when he heard about it, called and showed me concern which i never expected. These friends kept me company.... on the phone, online and via webcam throughout the night as i sobbed my heart out. :)

And i am so thankful that Siryn took the time to go Singapore with me over the New Year weekend. I didn't have to say it, but she knew i didn't want to be alone with my thoughts. Her presence made a whole lot of difference as we met up with friends and went shopping. And boy, did we SHOP!! One would think that our country is deprived of footwear from the number of shoes we bought from Charles & Keith. :P

FQ, Siryn & Csu have, through their friendship, assured me that i am never alone. And Tsing, in his blunt truthful way, has reminded me that i have not 'failed'. These friends have taught me to look at myself again and see the strength that lies within. The person who's spirit that isn't easily broken and who's not afraid to get up after a fall.

So.. with this new year.. here's looking to better things ahead. And since i'm going to step up and step out (once again), it doesn't hurt to do it with style... and with new shoes too!! ;D