The driving factor

A while ago, i allowed someone else to take the wheel. Thinking that maybe.. just maybe... i can learn to 'sit back' and see a different view. But somehow, by allowing myself to 'trust without question', i found myself stranded by the wayside. To realize how far i've been steered off course. To think that THAT was the way i wanted to go when the roadsigns along the way pointed otherwise. And harder still to find my way back. How foolish i was to think there would be roses when all i got was thorns.

I am back on this road called 'life'. But instead of embracing it like a familiar friend, i have been beating myself up for taking a wrong turn. Trying hard to make up the 'lost time' , i charged full speed ahead. Everything else became a blur as i raced on at breakneck speed. Thinking that if i moved faster, everything will be rosy again.

And in doing so, i have (once again) lost sight of what's important. In my impatience, i have been frustrated when i don't see immediate results. I have forgotten that it's the journey, not so much the destination, that matters. That it's also the pit stops along the way that recharges me.

Now, i find myself running on empty. I'm not lost....but i don't know where i am also.