*doosh*

What do i get?

Here i am again.... seated at my work station, waiting. And if i am not here, i'd be in the client's office... on the road... at home... in the cafe... or any other place. It is always the same.. i will be waiting. Though time and time again, i have strived to be the one 'who makes things happen', yet in the end... i still end up being the one who waits.

It is like an endless game which life forces me to play. To test my patience. To question my ability to 'let go' and not try to be in control all the time. Often times, i ask myself "Is it worth it? What if the very thing i wait for... never happens? Or turns out to be not what i expected?". The answers elude me still.

Then i came across this.... teaching me to appreciate the 'present', to make the most of every moment...

To realize the value of ONE YEAR, ask the student who failed a grade.
To realize the value of ONE MONTH, ask a mother who gave birth to a premature baby.
To realize the value of ONE WEEK, ask the editor of a weekly newspaper.
To realize the value of ONE HOUR, ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.
To realize the value of ONE MINUTE, ask a person who just missed the train.
To realize the value of ONE SECOND, ask a person who just avoided an accident.
To realize the value of ONE MILLISECOND, ask a person who won an Olympic silver medal.

But for now... this is closer to my truth...

How much of human life is lost in waiting.

~ Ralph Waldo Emerson ~

Nightmare before Christmas

Gaaaahhhhhhhh..... it's October already!! Where did the time go?? What have i been doing?? How come i don't remember? This is bad....very bad.... coz October means it's going to be Christmas soon,
which means have to wrap up client's Christmas Campaign now,
which mean nightmare about to begin (or already HERE since we're way behind schedule),
which means overtime,
which means no gym,
which means stress-eating,
which means fat cells multiplying,
which means feeling ugly & unattractive,
which means MORE stress-eating,
which means.....I need a holiday.....SIGH!!

*think happy thoughts think happy thoughts*

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For probably the 754th time, i've been asked why i don't blog as often as i used to.. and why the blog posts are getting more and more emo. Maybe because my life has become a meaningless routine. Maybe i'm losing my focus. Maybe the map i'm holding is not where i want to go.

I don't laugh as often as i used to. Things that once brought me joy now leaves me emotionless. The frustrations of others have been heaped upon me. And even though the burden is not mine to bear... often times, it has been easy for fingers to be pointed at me. Whatever i have taken pride in.. whatever i have done my best in... now feels as if it is not enough.. never good enough. Despite talking it through... despite telling myself it's only temporary and things are gonna get better... yet the light at the end of the tunnel seems so dim and so far away.

And if you think it doesn't happen... this big girl DID cry...

Joke of the Day

Warning: Based on true incident relating to actual people. May cause brain cells to scream and slam themselves against skull. Read at your own risk.

bLoNdiE: die la... i dunno which is carb and which is protein
bLoNdiE: all i know is fish = protein
dRaGoNfLy: DURRR
bLoNdiE: chicken = carb, cow = carb
dRaGoNfLy: UR HEAD LAH!!! Who says?!
bLoNdiE: pig = carb
dRaGoNfLy: ALL meats are protein!!!
bLoNdiE: huh. since when?
bLoNdiE: it's their skin that's carb rite? ppl advised not to eat KFC skin...
dRaGoNfLy: dats fats!!!
bLoNdiE: fats = carb. rite?
dRaGoNfLy: fats = FATS lah. Carbs come fr rice, potatoes, wheat, etc
dRaGoNfLy: Aiyo. Go back to school lah. Go see the food hierarchy chart.
bLoNdiE: i need that seriously
dRaGoNfLy: Didn't pay attention in school issit?
bLoNdiE: yalor... i very bad in science.. and history... and accounts...
dRaGoNfLy: *faints*
bLoNdiE: *laughs* i blur blur...
bLoNdiE: dunno how i got thru my exams!
dRaGoNfLy: Errr... Divine Intervention!?!?


SIGH.... am going to jump off a cliff. Anyone care to join me?!?!